Currently my life is consisting of early starts, work, study, gym, nutrition, sleep… Repeat.
I am all about preparation. But sometimes life just doesn’t work like that. I am currently studying for a Level 2 in Instructing Gym Based Exercise which I have had to try and squeeze it into my already compact and well organised schedule. This, complete with life throwing me a curve ball, pulled the rug from under me. I have always been a big believer in “making time” and always will be, but finding an extra 15 hours on top of my normal schedule to study, proved pretty stressful! I had my perfect little routine and adding this… just blew it to pieces! I didn’t know where to start.
First I panicked.
Then I wanted to give up.
Then wanting to give up made me mad because I never quit.
Then wanting to get it right made me scared. Scared to fail. This was all massively overwhelming.
I have had to reorganise. Form a plan. Because if there is one thing I have learnt, feeling stressing out and worrying, actually doesn’t solve the problem. Only doing something about it will. So I had to put something in place. I have had to make a list of my priorities. What is essential for me to do this week? How long do I need to do it? What can take a temporary step back? What can I do to make things easier for myself?
So this evening I prepped a weeks worth of lunches in bulk, bought healthy snacks and a couple of healthy ready meals ( well, as healthy as they can be, they are ready meals after all) to have on standby. I sorted out my schedule for the week. Got my shakes and other suppliments ready and made time to study.
For me putting this all in place was essential. I can’t function when I’m stressed and the only time I feel really stressed is when I feel helpless. So I have to help myself. This last couple of weeks have been testing. Balancing everything and wanting to succeed, the one thing I had to remind myself during this journey is that it’s okay to fail.
As adults, we seem to be so scared to fail. Where did this fear come from? We make excuses not to pursue the things we love because of a fear of failure. One example that highlighted this to me was whilst listening to a stream by Morelli Jr. He was talking about the resilience and perseverance of children. As babies, we learn to crawl and walk. We trip, we fall. When you first learnt to stand you didn’t get it right first time but this didn’t deter you. You kept going. It may have taken you say, 70+ attempts to try and stand unaided for the first time. But you persevered. As children we keep trying. Then, as adults, if we can’t get right after a few attempts, for example we slip up on the diet, we miss a gym session, we get an answer wrong on an exam, we didn’t get a job we applied for, we then believe we have failed. We give up.
Life is about learning. Learning doesn’t mean having all the right answers. It’s about getting it wrong and discovering the answers for your self. Learning what works for you.
The only true failure, is giving up.