Yesterday was one of those days. Non-stop. I had an early start for work, a doctor’s appointment, a stop at the super market, a delayed train home and prepped meals for the week then it was time for the Gym. Me and my partner walked as it was pretty warm and decided to hit legs! My favourite….
It was pretty packed in the gym so we decided to switch it up and do things in a different order. We did some work on quads and hamstring then moved over to the linear leg press. It was already stacked with an unbelievable amount of weight. My partner decided we should keep most of it on. Instantly in the back of my mind I could hear “you can’t do that!”, “There is no way”, “your legs are too tired”. I did two reps and stopped. Exasperated and frustrated, I put my head back against the rest and closed my eyes for a second. “I can’t do it”. I then challenged my boyfriend to try (we can be a bit competitive sometimes and leg day is the only day I can pretty much keep up with him!). He then pumped out 12 reps with what seemed little effort. I could feel my mood dipping and I was beginning to feel tearful. I stripped some weight off the machine and decided to start again. “I don’t think I can do this” “you’ve had a long day, you’re tired” is all I could hear chanting repeatedly in my mind. I did 6 reps and had to stop again. My boyfriend, tried to console me and reassure me I could do this but I didn’t want to hear it. I sat there deep in thought for a moment then walked to the gym toilets and sat on a stool. I was so mad at myself! It was then I had to tell myself. “You can do this! There is no reason you can’t”. This is what will separate me from the rest. This moment here. Not giving up. Even when I can think of plenty of reasons to go home. “I’m not in the right frame of mind”, “I’m tired”, “I can try again tomorrow”. I am here now and I want this. I needed to be stronger than my excuses. I came out stacked the weight back on cracked out 12 reps. My boyfriend was shocked and asking what had changed and I explained I’m not going to let my mind win!
This is where I found strength.
So yes, I have been there. At the gym, when you have 5 more minutes left of cardio or 1 more set of squats. This is where I found strength. This is where you can find it too. Pushing passed the pain. Not the kind of pain when you are going to injure yourself but the burn of muscle fatigue, when your heart is pounding in your ears and you are sweating in places you didn’t think you could sweat! This is where your mind will stop long before your body. Your mind will tell you that you are done, that you can’t do any more, that it hurts too much. That is your mind. Not your body. Your body will keep going much longer. When you get off the treadmill when you think “have nothing left”. You can still walk can’t you? You still make it home, you walk to the bathroom and stand in the shower. Your body is still going. Your mind is the one that stopped.
“Don’t stop when it hurts, stop when you are done.”
I have seen that quote thrown around quite a few times and I sometimes repeat it in my mind when I am working out. That is strength not stopping when it hurts, but when you are done. It doesn’t matter if you aren’t running as far as the girl next to you on the treadmill, or if you aren’t lifting the heaviest dumbbell. If you push passed that barrier, your barrier, that is strength. Those 3 reps you did after you thought you were done, Strength. Running 30 seconds longer than you told yourself you could, strength. Do not doubt yourself! I didn’t always have this mentality. For me, it just clicked and made sense.
Strength is body and mind.
You are still here. Those times before when you thought you couldn’t cope. You did. You are still here. Reading this. You are winning! If you fell off the bandwagon (skipped a week at the gym or a had a piece of cake) but still want it.. you are still winning.
You can jump off the bandwagon now and again, as long as you don’t forget where you parked it!
Winning, succeeding isn’t an end goal it’s a mentality. It’s carrying on when you think you’re ready to quit.
You have not failed and you have not quit.